i think about you all the time

everything was going so good..its funny how fast life has to bring obstacles its frustrating!!..is it always gonna be this way?? im actually thinking about how im not ready for all this..i really dont need it right now and its really killing me inside..i really dont know what you heard but i am almost sure everything is a lie..im trying so hard to be understanding and to not make the same mistakes i did last time..i should have thought about this long and hard before..and seriously, that other person..should get their facts straight and not make up crap that didnt happen,, how would that person know if i never EVER told them anything about my life..and all im asking is to please believe me...everything i said, that was the truth, so please believe me..

Algo mas..

A veces pienso que te miento cuando te digo que te quiero porque esto ya no es querer A veces creo que he muerto cuando no estás y yo despierto porque sé que esto ya no es querer Es algo más, algo que me llena algo que no mata ni envenena es algo más, algo más que amar Es algo más que la distancia que el dolor y la nostalgia sabemos que eso no nos va a separar Es darte un beso cada noche que tus manos me enamoren y que lo nuestro crezca cada día más Porque somos algo más...A veces creo que he vivido más de mil años contigo porque sé que esto ya no es querer A veces pienso que es mentira por cómo entraste en mi vida porque sé que esto ya no es querer Es algo más, algo que me llena algo que no mata ni envenenaes algo más, algo más que amar Y yo sé que no es querer porque en tus ojos yo me puedo perder contigo olvido lo que es temer a caso no sabes que tú eres para mí la noche, el día en mi vivir la sangre en mis venas lo doy todo por ti contigo el mundo no tiene final y el tiempo no se nos va a acabar..

MICHELLE <3333

APARICIO, Michelle

the most wonderful chica in the whole world!!!!

shes dealt with my dumbness so many times

and have so many good memories!!

MAH club will always be ours muahaha

and i love her OH so much!

desde lo profundo de mi alma y corazon LA AMO!!!! <3

Love extravagantly, hope unswervingly, trust steadily in God..

for the last few days it feels like if all i worked hard for in the past, put my heart into just brings pain, abundant pain. it makes me double think about the future, do i want to put my heart out there again? if it only brings pain then why should i...ive been asking myself this so much lately and i blame myself for getting into complicated situations i cant handle afterwards;
i hate how it is so easy to fall in love but so hard to fall out of love. He means so much to me. I just wish he knew because when I’m around him nothing else matters and when he talks to me my knees shake. The last thing I want is another heartbreak. If he would love me like I love him I could tell him that I will always be there, but when I try to talk, I just don’t know what to say because I know he doesn’t feel what i feel. Its hard knowing im not the one making him smile....I don't know... for a while, I had this tiny smidge of hope. i hoped we'd be together again. But, last night, when we talked...I knew it. I just knew you were in love with her. The kind of love that stays forever...now all I'm left with is a broken heart and shattered hopes and it feels like it will never be the same again...its funny how stupid i was...and instead of making me cry it makes me laugh, maybe its because ive cried enough over you and ive realized it dosent help me one bit..it dosent bring you back and i understand that know..but he was my hope, my only love, and every moment we had together is all i have left, which i will keep locked up in a corner of my heart forever.

1 Corinthians 13 :;<3

Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal. And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing. Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; Does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; Does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; Bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part. But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away. When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things. For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.
And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

zzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZ

omgosh! such a stressful week! finally its wednesday and my school week is done, i get to go home, sleep FOREVER and relax the next morning!!! yes!
so on the first day of school we opened our kits! it felt like christmas all over again!!!! it was amazing we got everything and i mean everything!!
we already learned how to shampoo, scalp treatments and scalp massages! ahhhh *sigh* they are the best! but the downfall of it is that i get barely any sleep and im so tired everyday =( but i hope i get used to it as time goes by...cnt wait to finish this!
off to my home to sleep cause im soo tired
<3

Blanche Macdonald

SOOOOOO tommorow is the big day!!!!! first day of class! and im sooo excited i dont think i'll be able to sleep tonight! i have to be there at 9am so that means i have to leave my house at 7 (or 6:30 just incase) and im gonna be there until 5:30! yay! =D hopefully i love it and that i make atleast one friend lol =p
after tommorow i'll keep you informed on how its goin!

*reminder to self : set alarm for 6*

"When you're safe at home you wish you were having an adventure; when you're having an adventure you wish you were safe at home"

..as 2 bullets rang through the night,
i felt as if my heart came out of my throat,
leaving me breathless, like if i was hit on
my back with a bat making me gasp for air...
i had never heard shots so near my house
before...just makes me think how i took safety
in my house for granted...3 minutes later the
baseball park, 1 minute away from my house,
was surrounded by cops...fear ran through
me thinking of what had happened. That
night i barely could sleep thinking on if the
shots were that close who knows how closer
they could get. Home is somewhere were you
feel safe, nothing touches you there, behind
4 walls and a roof over your head, no one, that
you do not know, can get inside. Its scary to think
that shootings like the one that happened near
my home are happening every day all over the
world and many innocent people are killed. Just
takes a second in which your life could change.
What if i was one of the young guys who got shot?
i am certainly lucky that i am safe, and that Jesus
lives in me, because i know God protects me
wherever i go and he does not wish pain or sadness
for us. He truly is amazing, satisfying my life
daily.
"..He won't let you stumble,
your guardian God wont fall asleep.
Not on your life! Israel's
guardian will never dose or sleep.
God's your guardian
right at your side to protect you-
shielding you from sunstroke,
sheltering you from moonstroke .
God guards you from every evil,
he guards your life.
he guards you when you leave and
when you return,
he guards you now, he guards you
always."
-Psalm 121:3-8

Love me tender, love me true, all my dreams fullfilled, for my darlin' i love you, and i always will...

i love sleeping in! ive been sleeping in for a month now and i have the rest of september to sleep in. well except for twice where ive woken up at 6 am just to prove my sister that im not a lazy bumm and that i sleep in cause i want to not because i cant wake up. {which is not necessarily true lol}
And im not looking forward to waking up at 5 every morning for school starting October 2nd =\
yay...

When its dark and cold, are you afraid that this time now at last it will be true when you know in your heart he no longer wants you ..

BLAH!
its one of those hot days [in september ..?!?!]...but on the bright side i got this sweeettt camera 2 days ago which has been attached to my hip :) its one that ive wanted for soo long and finally! i got it..takes awesome pictures [the one above is my cat sophie =) ]
i'm looking forward for the rest of my years with this camera <3

Half our life is spent trying to find something to do with the time we have rushed through life trying to save.

...time flies, marking itself in memories.... good memories, and some bad ones ...[which i haven't had in a while :) ] it feels like just yesterday i was getting ready to go to high school and its hard to believe its been 5 years!!
and now im getting ready into going to my dream school for hairdressing, and in just a year i will be out, done with school forever!!!! =D...and its weird cause a year ago i thought i wouldn't do anything with my life, and end up being a disappointment to myself, but now that im done it feels like it will go by super fast, i'll try to enjoy every second, cause if time flies as fast as it has these past 5 years, i want the marks, the memories to be deep so i could remember them forever.